Baby Baby

Those of you who have followed my journey as a new wife, beagle mom, and recipe tester, you have read posts about my struggle with infertility. You've read about the hurts that my husband and I have faced and the insensitive remarks we have heard. When I share on here I always share my heart and share very honestly how I am feeling and thinking so that being said I wanted to be open and share our latest update for my husband and I with those who have prayed with us, for us, and been so supportive for us.

Are you ready for the big news?!

WE ARE EXPECTING!!!!!!!!!!!!

I KNOW, CRAZY RIGHT?!!!

As of a couple days ago we hit our 11 week mark and the day after Valentine's Day we will be having our FIRST ULTRASOUND!!! We are so blessed and so excited for this new adventure! I want to say thank you so much for praying for us and being our support we found out with a home test on New Year's Eve, and was confirmed right after New Year's. What a way to start our year!!!

For those still struggling: 

I want you to know that I have not forgotten you, I have not let go of the hurt and the feelings of disappointment over and over again. While I know I am pregnant and you are struggling I want you to know I am still here for you, I still remember the hurt of finding out time after time that there is no baby, I remember hearing the words from doctor after doctor telling me without fertility treatments I more than likely would not carry a child and even with its a slim window, I did not forget the stinging hurt everytime someone told me they were with child, the feeling of having to smile and be happy for them meanwhile crying in private wondering if that would ever be me. Through this experience while I am eager and excited for this journey I want you to know I never want to EVER be insensitive to you. I will always be there for you. My encouragement to you is to keep your faith, to stay strong in the Lord even when your at your weakest. Let your heart express the hurt your feeling with God and take the time to let God speak life into you! I know what I am saying is hard and I know at times your not going to be able to follow through with it all but I need you to know I was there, I have journal upon journals to show the hurt, anguish, depression, and lostness that I had felt.

Lastly,
My Uncle said something so memorable to me while I was visiting family a week ago and we were discussing how it could be twins, and I was so scared and said "No I couldn't handle that" with all the joking aside and with the most calm, serious, loving, compassionate tone he responded with "You'll handle it perfectly because God only gives you what you can handle, and He will give you the resources you need, God is not limited in finances alone." That stuck with me and it still sticks with me. As hard as the hurt is that your feeling God is going to get you through it just stay faithful and remember that birthing a child isn't the only way to be a parent. Right before my husband and I found out we conceived we were ready to start looking into adoption and to be honest we still will probably look into it in time.